A Matter of Consequence

I would be a fool if I said that circumstances do not inspire poetry. I really like this one, even though it is by far not my best.

"A Matter of Consequence"

To be with you is my desire—
This fire burns within my being.
Seeing you each time does turn,
Inclines my heart to be with you.
To hold, embrace—to kiss your face
Is what the lust inside me says.
Ways together we might be,
I could see, but not condone.
Low am I in mind and spirit
As passion-fire does fill my veins.
In vain I seek to fight my flesh,
But all my best is brought to naught!
I want to love my God, my Father!
But rather would my body be
With you, my object of desire.
Indeed I am already walking
Down the path that leads to "us."
Thus you find me struck asunder,
Under the weight of what is "we,"
And what I know is all undone!
Cannot I find a path in middle,
To pursue you and God at once?
Break me God! I cry to heaven,
And bend my heart to do you will!
Yet will I cry when you and I,
Must separate and wait 'till when?